#131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 #131 that is the number that is ingrained in my head as of today Tuesday 22nd August 2017. Why this number? When I woke this morning, my mind flashed back of all the things I have yet to achieve. I had to ask myself if I still wanted to achieve them before the year is up and if so how long did I have. I roughly counted 120 days, but after asking google, they gave me a more accurate answer, 131 days. #131 to pick up the pieces and to put them back together. #131 days to reach and set goals. #131 days to make sure that 2017 is the best year I have ever had. #131 days to decide whether or not I clear all my previous efforts and plans and start again or just buckle down, reschedule, plan and organise my workload over the coming months. That is a longer and more in dept decsion that I have to make. But since I only have #131 days, my time is limited.
When I reached the thresh hold of 6 months plus and all was not achieved it dawned on me that time is pretty much running out. Leaving me with the sense of under achieving, failure and all the other feelings including feeling faithless and miserable.
I started to see signs and messages like; my present circumstance isn’t your final destination, or your present situation doesn’t determine where you will go. It’s then that my mind started to juggle and then I knew it was time to take action. These type of decisions always seem to come at a time when I least expect it. When these things come out of nowhere, I tend to pay more attention to them, in comparison to sitting down and having a meeting with myself to plan out my life. When these thoughts come out of the blue, they seem so much more urgent dont you think? I sometimes feel a little excitement and start to feel as though, I am getting another chance to get it right. My mind starts to race and ideas begin to surface. But a few hours later, the thoughts of negativity start to zone in and all that excitement starts to disappear.
This is when it gets hard. But quick decisions have to be made if I want to make the rest of the year a successful one. Do I want to look back and say yeah, or do I want to look back and say, shoulda, coulda, woulda. Regardless of what decision I will make, one has to be made soon. Today’s climate is easy yet so very hard. Easy to start but hard to get notice. With thousands of people online looking to make a difference in their life, I often ask the question, is it worth the start?
LIFE- the thing is you never know until you try to as long as you put in that 1000%, taking the blows, ups and downs and falls along with, it’s only then that you can see what you have done.